The weather today is quite nice

  The sky was a blue that felt uplifting

  The clouds were drifting about lazily across the blue sky

  I took the time to breathe it in

  This calm peaceful weather that came after a long time of bad ones

  Maybe life isn't so bad right now

  ...well for other people anyways

  My life will always feel miserable

  Hehe

  Why should there be such clear weather

  Why can't it be another storm that engulfs the entire world

  Then that misery would come to an end

  The other people can be given as example as Mr Yakuza at the front teaching a silent classroom

  Or the students with their head down

  There were a lot of students with their heads down

  Maybe they are just tired or something

  Or maybe they are sick

  Anyway I seem to be the only one that noticed such amazing weather

  I mean the other students don't look like they are going to be looking outside the window anytime soon

  They aren't one to casually admire the weather

  Hehe

  Maybe I should end them then face their corpse to the window

  Maybe then they would have the time to admire the scenery

  I studied the students more closely and felt that the vibes were wrong

  Is it just me or does something feel like it's going to go wrong

  It's just an intuition of mine but I feel like the classroom suddenly isn't so safe

  I turned to gaze at the only form of authority at the front of the class but he seemed not to care about it more than a slight longer of his eyes

  Those who were seated beside the obvious slackers tried to wake them up but there was no result

  Their heads continued to be down and they didn't even budge

  Logically they should have at least shifted from their position slightly

  But they didn't move an inch

  And if I examine it more closely; their posture isn't something that should be comfortable enough for dozing

  Neither does it look like someone who is dozing off

  He he

  Should I drag them off their seats after ending them and check for myself

  I turned my gaze back to Mr Yakuza but he ignored it

  He really is relentless

  Something is obviously wrong in his classroom but he just continued teaching Language without caring

  Shouldn't he have noticed that the students are in a weird situation

  And sent them to the clinic or something

  Speaking of ; I just noticed that there are a large amount of students in the hallway

  It seems the other classes were infected with the collapsing fever because there were a lot of students sending collapsed students in batches

  He he

  I hope their life ends as a result

  Mr Yakuza didn't even bat an eye to the situation outside

  Should I end this teacher too before he collapses like the others

  The lesson on Language went on and I paid attention to it

  Mr Yakuza sounded stiff and I felt like he has taught us this before

  It's vague but the tone and the words sounds like something I have heard repeatedly

  But this is certainly a new topic in class because he said he would be starting a new one this week

  And I don't have the money for a tutor and no friends to have heard them say it

  Neither do I stay close enough to the other students to have heard it from them

  Anyway he is a relentless man nonetheless

  Hmm I feel like I've shifted off topic

  And we do share that same quality with each other

  I mean he teaches at a school where he is discriminated against and has the lowest status

  He he

  I can burn this school to the ground and end the problem

  While I simply exist

  He he

  I can end you too

  This story originates from Royal Road. Ensure the author gets the support they deserve by reading it there.

  Why am I able to see

  Corpses can't see

  Why am I able to hear

  Corpses can't hear anything

  Why can I smell that pungent stench

  It's starting to smell funny and the direction is coming from my deskmate

  Corpses might smell like this

  But I can't determine if it's the exact same smell because the dead people I have seen were fresh victims of the natural disasters

  The smell of blood was a whole lot more pungent at the time

  Plus it was everywhere

  He he

  Should I just end the world in a flood of blood

  Why do I feel the clothes brushing against my skin and the goosebumps that are growing on it

  Seriously, this place feels dangerous like something is going to pop out

  Why

  Why

  Why

  I know why, I've always known why

  Sometimes I try to convince myself of the opposite but that's just a means to justify myself

  It isn't the truth

  And both deep down and on the surface; I know the truth

  Honestly this morning is a solid reminder of this truth

  Instead of reminiscing, shouldn't I pay more attention to the source of my discomfort

  I woke up as usual in my very empty room

  It wasn't like the other dorm rooms assigned to the other students

  It was smaller and not properly maintained

  Plus some people used it as a storage room even with me sleeping here

  But why would they care about an orphan boy with no future prospects

  It's not like I'm achieving anything in this school except a show of sympathy by the powerful to the weak

  I'm merely a figure head or a symbol

  I wasn't the only orphan sent to a school built by the nobility

  There was one more kid that grew up in an orphanage controlled by the nobility

  And he is in the lower grade

  Honestly I have enough problems to deal with by myself so I can't spare the effort to care about someone else

  My life is already enough to keep me occupied

  Besides he grew up in an orphanage and I grew up on the streets destroyed by natural disasters

  I'm pretty sure they treat him better than me

  Though he would probably still be discriminated against

  He he

  Should I end all nobility and set the world back to disguised inequality

  Sigh life sure is miserable

  Can't I just end it already

  Though I should probably pay attention to the person making groaning noises beside me

  He actually sounds like he's going to die

  The opportunity felt like it presented itself when I left my dorm admit the grey skies

  How odd for it to become clear blue skies not long after

  The shift somehow feels ominous

  I was on my way to drop off my room key after turning the key once

  There wasn't a risk of stealing because no one wanted to touch something of mine

  It was the worst quality

  And I was trash in their eyes

  Who would willing want to touch something thrown in the garbage

  Anyways I was walking to the drop of the key

  I usually walked at the edges away from the main path

  So that I won't bump into anyone on the way to class

  Plus I pay extra attention while walking

  But I got distracted by a student trying to jump another student and collapsing

  He felt familiar and I realized that it was one of the few students who actively bullied me

  He was walking with his friends when he started acting weird and threw himself at one of his friends and collapsed

  There were also a lot of black spots growing on his face

  It was disgusting and I turned to look away when someone bumped into me

  "Watch it" the voice came out just as I landed on the floor

  I hissed in pain as one of bruises began to ache again

  "I'm sorry" I whispered in a kneeling position

  Has I'm really pathetic

  I didn't even have to let him say more than two words before I was on my knees pleading

  "Are you mocking me" he was angry all of a sudden with my kneeling and he stretched out his hands to me

  "I'm sorry" I slammed my head on the concrete floor and started pleading more

  I felt the same danger as when I'm about to be beaten up so I tried to make myself as pathetic as possible

  This person was also part of the friend group of the collapsed bully

  So I was sure that he could drag me away for a beating

  But isn't he being more irrational than normal

  Why would he want to beat me up for apologizing

  He he

  Should I beat him until his heartbeat ends

  "Hey come and help" it was the voice of the friend group with the bully

  "I don't have time for this" he turned away to help them drag the unconscious bully away

  I sighed in relief and stood up

  The rest of my journey to class was majorly uneventful

  The only highlight was that I slipped and almost fell unto another collapsing student

  There was water leaking from the girl's bathroom and noises could be heard inside

  The second thing to note was that there were some students collapsing

  They were the nerds and those in lowest status in school hierarchy who came early to class

  Of course I wasn't even in the hierarchy but below it

  Far below it so much so; that I wasn't considered human

  At the end of the day; I made it to class safely

  Now here I am

  I returned back to the present and examined the classroom

  The students with their heads on the desk slowly raised it up one by one

  I swiftly turned to my desk mate who had his head raised too

  His face was filled with black spots

  His red eyes focused on me and his mouth opened widely at my direction with drool dripping down at the side

  He looked like a monster to me

  I finally knew where the danger came from

  It was everywhere

  I could feel it

  I was going to die if this continued

  But I was scared

  I wasn't scared that I was going to die

  No I was scared of the ferocious monster beside me

  My desk mate looked really scary and I wanted to run away

  I screamed and fell off my chair trembling

  The monster pounced on me as I fell of my chair

  It bit me in the neck and I was assaulted with horrible pain as a result

  I chocked on the blood filling my throat

  I could feel myself slipping

  It felt like freedom to slowly slip away from the world

  I can't believe that I almost lost this chance at being free because I was scared of a monster

  It's also the reason I have been alive until now even though I didn't try to be

  It's because I'm scared of people so I run away from them when they try to kill me

  I'm scared of natural disasters so I run away instead of letting myself die

  I was scared of my ferocious deskmate because he looked like a monster

  I'm scared of everything that can make me achieve the death I seek

  I really am a coward; I thought before death overcame me

  He he

  Ha ha

  Hahaha

  HAHAHAHAHA

  AH HAHAHAHAHAHA

  Finally it's all come to an end

  But I have to share this joy with everyone

  Let's all enjoy the release of ending

  His eyes that were wide open at death flashed a red color

  ........................

  The weather is nice

  Aren't I dead though so how am I thinking