"Who are you" I asked reflexively

  It's a thought that had developed after reading so much manga

  Once a main character has interacted with the mysterious

  The first question is usually one of asking for the identity of the unknown entity

  But honestly I don't care

  Even if it turns out to be the cheat system or cheat item

  I don't want it

  I've learned my lesson adequately

  I am trash and no cheats item can change that

  It's hilarious that people argue that a main character with a system cheat is useless without the system

  That's ridiculous

  Just look at me for example

  I obviously have the cheat of going back in time or looping to be precise

  But instead of growing stronger or using it to my advantage

  I died without even getting out of my classroom

  I died once I stepped into the hallway

  I died once I jumped out of the window

  I died when I sought help...no correction I was tossed aside once I sought help

  No one would want a baggage like me

  Plus I couldn't keep up

  So I was left behind

  Now...now I'm sick of this

  I'm sick of it all

  I just want to rest peacefully

  So I don't want a system

  That would just mean I would be forced to live a life of servitude

  No I want a peaceful ending away from the world and it'

  s misery

  Away from all suffering to come if I continue to live

  I don't want to strive to my change my life

  Because in an apocalypse; how good do you really think life can be

  It's just fight for survival day in and day out

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  "Death, misery and destruction"

  "I am the end that has come to reap the world"

  "I am the end of it all"

  Then can you get me out; I said not caring about it's title

  Who cares about the ominous sign or the madness in its tone

  So what if it destroys the world

  It's not like I'll be around to witness it

  I'll be free

  Freedom awaits me

  "Then do you accept"

  the voice was whispering and loud at the same time with unrecognizable utterances

  But I could understand the meaning that it wanted to convey

  "Yes"

  I said this and the voices became silent

  Then I became nervous again

  I had this whole conversation in my head while my brother spoke the same words as usual

  Then he left

  After a while I decided to take my seat

  Though I didn't feel any different

  There was no mysterious feeling or warm current in my body

  Neither did I get a headache or nausea

  "System"

  "Status" I tried once more just in case but there was no response

  Should I try to kill myself

  But would that interrupt the process

  I looked around the classroom but there was nothing else that was different

  Then I heard it

  The student collapsed

  The same old story reoccurred

  And I was attacked

  By that ferocious zombie

  I felt my heart beat slow down and then I felt something different

  The pain was more than normal

  Originally each death that occurred in each loop was painful

  Even the ones in which I committed suicide was still very painful

  But I was too deep into the fact that I was still alive to care

  And then after repeatedly getting used to it, I became numb

  But now I felt the sensation of pain again

  That hot scalding pain that set your body on fire

  It felt like I was being skinned alive but in very thin layers

  The skin, organs and bones were stripped in layers as thin as papers

  It was torturous and I was forced to remember the pain I had neglected

  I screamed and tears ran down my face

  Of course there was no one else left in school to notice it

  No to be precise everyone else was busy battling the zombies

  Some were screaming but everyone had a common goal to leave the school

  So his screams were one in a hundred

  His voice was covered and the zombie in the classroom had gone off to chase the escaping student

  I started to twitch violently on the ground and let my consciousness completely disappear

  Hopefully this amount of pain means that I won't wake up in this wretched classroom again

  My eyes rolled back and my heart stopped beating

  This lasted five minutes

  Then the sound of a heart beat could be heard

  The only student left in the classroom whose corpse hadn't turned started twitching

  Then his chest rose and fall

  Then his eyes which were rolled back began to spin around in a frenzy

  The veins in his eyeballs started to protrude in the white if his eyes

  His eyes gradually turned bloodshot

  Then stopped it's bizarre movement

  The student covered in blood and the wound on his shoulder squirmed

  The flesh around the wound turned into a liquid like melted wax and closed together over the wound

  To give a mental image would be to imagine you grabbing two side of a shirt and zips it up

  But the skin is the fabric and there is no zip

  Instead the skin merges together

  If one looks closely then they would realize that even the muscle and vessels that were damaged grew by itself

  And if one should observe the floor which he is on then they would realize that there was a male and female that had gone through the same bizarre healing process

  The student rose up and his mouth broke into a large grin

  Once again there was maniacal laughter echoing in the building

  While the person who caused this had a crazed expression on his face

  No more accurate,

  Ming Jun had twisted his face into a smile that one would imagine a perverted serial killer would have

  Just imagine the kind of face a serial killer makes as it cuts the bodies of his or her victims

  Suddenly the eyes that were bloodshot and crazed rolled back

  Ming Jun fainted once again

  Though he was safe from the time being as the zombies weren't attracted to the crazed laughter

  After Ming Jun collapsed;

  A cat made out of red shadow walked over to him

  The cat ran from the right side of his waist to his shoulder

  Then it jumped off his shoulder and left the classroom

  End of Self-doubt arc